nausea —
the wind, knocked out of me.
my lungs, like stubborn wind
does not succumb,
unable to surrender to death
for your sake.
my heart breaks
to a fast paced waltz

un
co or
dinate
d.

it shatters more,
each piece crying out
each letter of your name
it starts with a loud J

and ends in a hushed
letter unrecognizable
nausea.

nausea —
it comes back.
like the ghost of poison
empty and
real
enough to bring forth
the fire
of you

and cause me
to bend forward.
and scream your name
in agony
of longingness.

nausea.

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like milk that had gone sour
and stale cakes
that lingered with the air too much
my soul   b  r   ea  k  s

into a hundred tiny crumb
that crumbles more.

your words,
fly like swords
and cut through
broken shards of my heart

and linger long enough
to leave me bleeding still.

no longer can I wish –
I could have waited
long enough to have
missed your promises

like mist
wanting only to dissipate.

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when i used to write like this

If

I                                               You

perceive

hate                                         love

like a

multi-hued                                          monochromatic

flower                                      photograph

then tears would

abate                                                  flow

and

I                                               You

would blend

gracefully                                            roughly

with the world and its

splendors                                           spites

and if

I                                               You

may learn to love

Somebody                                         Nobody

and be like the

starry sky                                            barren ground

so

essential                                             insignificant

to everyone

my                                           your

life would be like

a child’s                                              an adult’s

laugh

innocently                                           maliciously

echoing with

truthfulness                                         pretenses

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